Endings.

-Note this was started in late May but, for obvious reasons I postponed it-

"Nothing gold can stay." Never so much in my life has that fateful line from the Outsiders resonated with me. Endings, for all that begins the end is inevitable.

Why so gloomy? Well endings have been anything but far and few between this past week. Some tragic, some exciting, and some just bittersweet. But, there is a purpose behind them all and a reason each happened. Let's go.

Bittersweet. The End of VMK was bittersweet. 2 years of, often inconsistent, devotion was all proved frugal when Disney decided that the year of a million dreams mantra was a joke. If you didn't hear, no surprise, Disney decided that it's virtual world VMK, opened solely for the 50th anniversary, would shut down. Fans across the world cried out "Why!" and THEY fed us bullshit about the project never meaning to go into its 3rd year. Well hey sherlock THEN WHY DID YOU LET IT? No one was forcing you to update everything weekly and create new and better things constantly. You shot yourself in the foot and are now blaming the kids for it. The biggest speculation behind this is that Disney has recently created many other online worlds with 'pat for play' features. VMK is free. So the Disney machine has gotten revenue from all the in-park quests, hotels, and parks but none directly from the game itself. So pull the plug.. hey stupid MAKE IT PLAY FOR PAY. I heard so many people say I would stop paying more such and such if VMK was PFP. Obviously no one at Disney has common sense. That game was fun but, I often got bored. Oh well..

Exciting. The end of college was exciting.. for Greg. Last Saturday I go the pleasure of driving up to good ol' Poughkeepsie to watch 692 kids graduate before greg did. It was great, really it was. Sun beating down my neck, no breakfast in my stomach, peeeerfect. It was kind of cool though seeing him graduate, but the diploma comes in the mail... sureeeee Greg. And then a forever ride to god knows where for dinner. A 45 minute affair lasted 1 1/2 hours with 9 people and a voiceless waitress. Overall the experience was fun. I got to FINALLY see his apartment it was fairly nice. And got to see the stairs PLENTY of time with boxes and shelves and drawers in my arms. 

Tragic. The end of.. of Trevor, my dog.. was.. was tragic. Oh, god that was difficult. The Beatitudes should be helpful but, just annoying really. Those who mourn will be comforted. Ehhem!!! Over here, mourning waiting.. for the comfort. Anytime soon, no? So how did it happen? 4 Am I was woken "We're going to see Trevor" Ok, well he was really sick so this makes sense cause we'll be at Greg's graduation (YES It happened on his graduation day) Hmm.. little did I know. An hour off runny noses, wet eyes, and sad faces left me exhausted. No comprehension. No thinking. No nothing. The day was so exciting and filled with activity no one turned on the light switch in my head, until the car home then it was clear. Unfortunately clear. 9 years had ended, forever. I wished I could've stayed at Marist permanently the thought of going back into that house was unbearable. A week went by where every spot had his furry face. His bowl was in the sink for the last time, his leash on the steps not be used again, and my mom I guess in her own therapeutic way threw out one of his stuffed animals, well OURS but HIS. I returned the bunny to its place and moved on. Horrible. But, the horizon wasn't soo daunting a new puppy would be arriving. Not for me but, for Abby a golden doodle named Mae, part Golden Retriever, how perfect? I guess for every door closed another opens. I haven't told my friends except one who my situation I had to. I don't intend on doing that for a while, if they notice I'll explain but its not their burden to bear. The wound is raw, the healing has yet to begin but it will. I hope.

KCTW

The End.